Feeling so stress these few days, coz it's exam week. I did study hard for the whole sem. I even sacrifice my habby...drawing... just to study to become an engineer. but it seems that i don't have that kind of 'genetic' inside me.
although in the first sem, i manage to get a 3 point, but it sound so useless for me since the place i study here is a 'not so well known' colledge.
oh well. surfing DA... looking at those other people's nice nice art works... found that i've loose my talent... drawing... am i still able to draw like last time? i don't know. but when i took my pencil.... all sorts of 1 and 0 s came to my brain.... 110101010111010101001
seems that... now i know only 1 and 0 ... i'm no more imaginative... no magics, no adventures, no mechas, no monsters, no bishounen..... at least i still remember the word 'bishounens'....
i became not like myself anymore.... last time, i didn't study hard but pretty lucky, got pass the exam... now, i study hard but so damn unlucky... not getting the result i want.
friends here are all... so ... CRUEL! they only stick with u when u hae MONEY! n car... i miss my old fren very much... but they all are the same now... thier mind are all 1 and 0 s too... saparated so far away... our gaps become far far away.
oh well... che la ve... thats the life... i prefer working as a small clerk like last time.
miss DA journal corner very much.. it's my place to sound out my emotions last time... never think of who will read it... but i really feels happy after posting it...